I'm single. I personally, mostly think it sucks. I love the feeling of loving someone and having someone that you can confide in about things and depend on. I've been burned a hundred times and it hurts and it's hard, but I don't think I'll ever really give up on finding love. This is kind of a depressing post... one that you almost don't want to write.
On the bright side- I am thankful that I have learned to stand on my own two feet and be responsible. I may not be a good housekeeper by any means or keep the yard neat and trimmed. Sometimes I pay a bill late and give myself a hard time, but I also wayyy over commit myself. Right now, my day starts around 6 or 6:30am. I leave for school by 7:30. I drive 27 miles to my school and work all day until the kids leave at 3:45 and then try to get home by 6:30/6:45. When I get home I spend about an hour tending to the dogs and cleaning up their messes. I decide to maybe eat dinner between 7:30 and 8. Then I do school work while watching tv... but sometimes in between I crash out asleep and wake up at 1am. Other times, I watch tv and work until 11... then try to fall asleep but lay awake until one or two... and repeat it all over again the next day. P.S. I also am taking two graduate courses for my Master's in Educational Psychology and am in charge of 34 students in K-4th grade with loads of paperwork. Am I responsible? Sure. Do I get enough sleep? Not nearly- but who really does? Am I crazy? HA! Probably!
So what does a single girl do when she does have time?
She sleeps. She cuddles and plays and gives kisses to her Pomeranians. Loves on her kitties. Shops for deals at Old Navy and the Gap Outlet. She looks for crafty bargains or wanders Target or Walmart aimlessly. She hangs out with her amazing friends to craft or shop or eat or go to a yogurt bar or laugh and vent. A single girl snatches those moments when she feels like she can breathe and lives life to the fullest and this single girl, forgets that a man probably isn't going to fall into her lap!
Seriously- you know if I find a guy at the flea market or Joanns or Old Navy or Gap Outlet or Target or Walmart... he's probably got a girlfriend who drug him there!
Well. I'm 28. I'm single. I've opened up and been hurt. I cry and heal. I open up again. I have two Pomeranians and two cats. I teach, I love my students, and I work on my Master's degree. I shop waayyyy too much and need to learn to clean house and budget better. But-
I am ONLY 28!!!
There's still time, there's always time to make change and to choose to be happy.
So... I may have started off gray and dreary, but I'm working on choosing to be happy. I'm working to remember those daily moments that make me smile as a SINGLE girl. And, it's gonna be O.K.