Tuesday, April 20, 2010

One Week Later

In just over an hour it will be one week since I took my precious dog, Buddy, to the vet for the very last time. I still miss him terribly. I have cried every single day over him, with the freakish exception of yesterday which may have just been exhaustion. I still look for him to come down the hallway when I'm getting ready for bed. I wake up in the middle of the night and look down off the side of the bed to check on him and he isn't there. The pain feels like it's going to rip me apart sometimes. I've had the screaming cry, the sobbing, the quiet never ending flow of tears... to some people they are just pets, to me he was my furry four legged child. The librarian at school put a book called "Dog Heaven" in my mailbox. It made me cry, but it made me smile too. I know Buddy is out of pain and in a better place. Within the next week the vet I took him to will call and let me know that his ashes are ready for me to pick up. I know it will be hard, but I'm hoping it'll help in some way to know that Buddy is back home here where he belongs. Thank you for all of the comments on my posts this week. Every single one distracted me for a few moments and put a smile on my face. I love every single one of you so much! I'll be back to let you all know what I've been up to in the craft and flea market therapy soon.

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  2. Hi Amy, Thanks for the visit to my blog and giving me suggestions for pup names for Pan's puppy pal. You know I love themes myself and have had this going with my Weims over the many years I've had them. I've had a Ghost, a Spook, a Puck, and now a Pan. If I had a girl pup I was definately going to go with the Tink as you suggested. But now that I think about it why a boy named Tinker, Tink for short?. That could work I'll run it past Bob my husband. I used to have cats I named all from Shakespear's Midsummer Night's Dream, Quince, Bottom, Cobweb, and Oberon.
    I know exactly how you feel about your dog I went through this more times that I like to think about one word to describe it would be 'grueling'...take care and come see me again. Nan

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